you are not the only one. There was a paper covering this exact topic in the Proceedings of the National Academy of Sciences a few years back [0].

Passive learning (lecture) scored better on:

* Student Enjoyment

* Feeling of Learning

* Instructor effectiveness

* I wish all my courses where taught this way

Active Learning (i.e., not lecture) scored better on:

* Actual learning

The differences are not small.

[0] https://www.pnas.org/doi/10.1073/pnas.1821936116