The thing is, I know what "infinite" intrinsic motivation and flow feel like; it simply disappeared at some point.
Maybe wrong environment, maybe unfortunate neural maturation, maybe I haven't found the right thing?
And all this talk about adult ADHD in the context of self-improvement feels like medicalizing normality to increase demand for stimulants. Stimulants stimulate, so of course they increase motivation (at the cost of cardiovascular and possibly other side effects). With the right (stimulating) amount of alcohol I actually get motivated too.
Not feeling motivated to do shit on your own aside from what's necessary to survive (i.e. not in the context of a greater purpose) or leisure seems pretty natural for most I know.
And what actually constitutes a pathological level of attention-deficit and hyperactivity: To me it's that loud kid running around during class with no amount of (non-abuse) punishment reigning it in; not not feeling like operating under pressure of higher demands due to increased competition or do or die mentality.
Maybe wrong environment, maybe unfortunate neural maturation, maybe I haven't found the right thing?
And all this talk about adult ADHD in the context of self-improvement feels like medicalizing normality to increase demand for stimulants. Stimulants stimulate, so of course they increase motivation (at the cost of cardiovascular and possibly other side effects). With the right (stimulating) amount of alcohol I actually get motivated too.
Not feeling motivated to do shit on your own aside from what's necessary to survive (i.e. not in the context of a greater purpose) or leisure seems pretty natural for most I know.
And what actually constitutes a pathological level of attention-deficit and hyperactivity: To me it's that loud kid running around during class with no amount of (non-abuse) punishment reigning it in; not not feeling like operating under pressure of higher demands due to increased competition or do or die mentality.